Helen

How are you feeling today?

Today…? I am feeling hopeful and full of peaceful wondering, so far it’s been a week of my choices.

What are you most proud of?

MMMMmmm...This isn’t an easy question…

I suppose it’s been the ‘bravery’ , to try different things, I’m a seeker in life ... I’ve always seen that as a plus and I still do. Others often felt they had the right to express this as a negative, of not sticking to one thing , but I never thought they were right, I never ever liked restriction or confinement, I used to feel trapped easily and also I don’t want to leave this world thinking I wish I could have done more...

I’m also proud (if that’s the right word) of being able to discover and develop the feeling of peace within myself after years of anxiety.

What is your biggest learning in life so far?

Learning to surrender, to understand and trust my instincts.

Fearing that I would be childless from a young age caused me a lot of pain, it also made me question even more and look for my own answers...even when I found no clear ones, I found out so much more about this existence outside of what I had been taught to believe. 

What are your hopes for the future?

That people are able to live in openness and honesty and realise that societies need to evolve.

For the childless community, I hope that people speak out much more, even those who think they’re okay...but are silent.

For us all, we must all find our voices.

What would you tell your younger self?

... Ok...well I was 18 when I found out I probably would never conceive so...I’d say...‘‘Hang on in there sweetheart, don’t give up on your life, I know you’re panicking and scared, people don’t get your life, they can’t and you can’t help them to. They think they can’t help you and that doing nothing is better than getting it wrong. Keep going whatever happens, one day at a time, it will take time but...you’re going to make it through this pain and feel amazing one day, you truly are…because you’re the bravest girl, so focus on that...and then you’ll understand that you don’t need the acceptance of anyone but yourself...people will understand you, you will find out that you’re not alone.’

When or where are you happiest?

This could be a whole book...I’m actually a loner, some may find that surprising (I can talk and talk). But I’m truly happy in my own company, although I do like to get in deeper with like minded people.

I’m happy to listen to my body and feel healthy, something I don’t take for granted.

Being a singer, I’m so very happy being part of beautiful creative sound projects.

I’m a water sign and love to be near water, I live by the canal in London, when I move there’ll have to be sea. I also like heavy rains, I take a cup of tea onto the balcony and just sit there while the rain falls...I loved the monsoons when I lived in India, they’re so cleansing and healing...it’s a magical time. Living in India and trekking in the Himalayas in Nepal gave me some of the happiest moments of my life. Travelling is so good for the soul, I really gained perspectives I would have never had.

What would you like to say to wider society?

We need to live and work together and not allow narrow minded people, egos and commercialism to rule us, it often turns us all to competitiveness and greed. We need to promote compassion, there is enough for us all in this world...and...Watch out for the childless people, here we come...to help make better changes for us all, everywhere in this world.